In my naivety, I commented that according to natural law, all private men have a God-given, absolute right to bear arms, and that as per nemo potest dare quod non habet ("no man can grant that which he does not own himself", i.e. the government has only those powers granted to it by those citizens who themselves possess those powers), it is the people who grant the government the right to bear arms, not vice versa. Therefore, I said, the concept of the government having a monopoly on the use of violence, and granting to citizens the right to use violence, made no sense.
Therefore, I said, the notion that a state is "failed" for failing to secure a monopoly on violence per se, made no sense to me. To me, the state had a functional purpose, viz. to protect life, liberty, and property, but it did not have a monopoly on this function. The state was an organization formed by voluntary contract and consent, and citizens could, at any time, at will, revoke their consent to be governed. The state might "fail", in my mind, if it failed to suppress immoral or unjust violence, i.e. if it failed to fulfill its functional purpose, but not if it merely failed to suppress all violence per se outside the state's monopoly, which monopoly I did not recognize.
So we see that I was an anarchist a long time ago, but I just didn't realize it. I honestly thought I was a minarchist. To me, to say that the state ought to exist as a voluntary organization composed of those who consented to membership and who hadn't submitted a request to be disenrolled, was a perfectly cogent thing to believe without being an anarchist. In defense of my naivety, I quote Albert Jay Nock's "Anarchist's Progress":
It will easily be seen, I think, that the only unusual thing about all this was that my mind was perfectly unprepossessed and blank throughout. My experiences were surely not uncommon, and my reasonings and inferences were no more than any child, who was more than halfwitted, could have made without trouble. But my mind had never been perverted or sophisticated; it was left to itself. I never went to school, so I was never indoctrinated with pseudo-patriotic fustian of any kind, and the plain, natural truth of such matters as I have been describing, therefore, found its way to my mind without encountering any artificial obstacle.